How to reboot your life after a traumatic event

The traumatic road

Sitting in the car edging away from my life of almost three years, I jolted back to the traumatic conversation that placed me at this moment heading home.

“You need to sort things out, and it can’t happen here, you must re-enter the world.”

Dread seeped from every pore, panic enveloped me, and disbelief filled my mind. I wanted to scream “No.” I had no choice, however, as my future was not mine to decide – tears cascaded and fear took over.

I had come to escape the world not ever wanting to be part of it again, but here I sat being driven back into it. Shock flooded my senses; my body started to shake, the traumatic conclusion of a hope filled life crushed. “How could they?”

If I could have taken a dose of memory loss instead, I think I would have grasped it with both hands.

Living with rejection and fear following me around, re-entering the world of chaos tore at my heart.  Every sinew screeched to breaking point – Father help me, I can’t do this alone.

Oh, how I understand Vikki’s pain. Together we walk the same damaged road trying to reboot our lives.

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My penny’s worth Book Review for Will Not See by Chautona Havig
What I liked

Chautona Havig is a master craftsman when it comes to writing characters. Vikki seems the last person to have a past, but in beautifully scripted form, this young lady steps out of the pages alive with doubts, fears and the handicap of losing her memory.

Trying to piece Vikki’s life together is fraught with realisations – some funny and others disturbing, especially with her friend remembering more than Vikki does about her past. I am glad that Vikki decided not to reinvent herself like Ella in “None So Blind” as I identify more with Vikki than Ella.

Which supporting character did I enjoy reading about?

Brandon – the underdog. I love his humour and knight like qualities. His service and giving. The risk taker who gently woos the girl of his dreams knowing how dangerous it is to do so. And the believer who understands “Faith in Jesus doesn’t promise us that the damage sin has done in this world won’t affect us ever again – not here. But faith in Jesus means it doesn’t win.”  I love his depth.

There is also Barney, brief though his role is, I felt myself saying if only…. Churches need someone like him.

Questions, questions

“Will Not See” has left me with questions for which I need answers. Chautona Havig you have me dangling – this is so unfair!

Would I recommend this book?

Having read “None So Blind”, I am glad I have had the opportunity to read “Will Not See” and am looking forward to the sequel. I have come to care about these characters, and I want to know what happens to them. So yes I would definitely recommend this book and the previous one too. When is the next one coming out, I need it to tie-up all the loose ends?

*I received this book for free. No compensation was received, and all opinions are my own.*

Book review for Will Not See by Chautona Havig

 About the Book

Book title: Will Not SeeA traumatic event - Book review for Will Not See by Chautona Havig

Author: Chautona Havig

Release date: August 29, 2017

Genre: Christian Fiction / contemporary / suspense (light)

When Vikki Jeffries wakes up in a Rockland hotel with no idea of who she is and why she can’t remember… well, anything, the Rockland medical community begins to take a closer look at what may have happened to cause a second case of inexplicable amnesia.

But for Vikki, this is more than a medical anomaly–it’s her life. What is she doing in Rockland, thousands of miles away from her home in Apache Junction, Arizona? Who is she? Why is no one looking for her? Or are they?

Will Not See: Not everything is as it seems.

 

Book Link on Websitehttps://chautona.com/books/will-not-see

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About the Author

Author of the Amazon best-selling Aggie and Past Forward Series, media-headshotChautona Havig lives and writes in California’s Mojave Desert. With dozens of books to her name, Chautona spends most of her time writing, but when she takes the rare break, she can be found reading, sewing, paper crafting, or sleeping and dreaming of finishing the dozens of books swirling in her overly-active imagination at any given moment

 

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The circle of death swirls on the screen and it shifts. The bank balance appears, and with it, my heart sinks. It’s been a tough few months, financially.  The bottom line proves it.

My reaction? Inhale. Exhale. “Okay, now we know the worst. We can do something about it.”

My husband, on the other hand, suffers a definite blow. Kevin might not sleep that night. Instead, he’ll mull over what we could have done differently, how we can make changes if he’s a failure at this thing called life.  He’ll pray—for hours.

They say ignorance is bliss. And sometimes, that’s true. It’s also a personality thing, I think. I tend to be a “let me have your worst” kind of gal. But when the negative arrives, I also tend to want to shield Kevin from it all. I don’t know how he can worry so much.  He can’t fathom how I can turn it off.

But sometimes those personality things go deeper—into what can be serious faults.  It has been said,

“There are none so blind as those who will not see. The most deluded people are those who choose to ignore what they already know.” 

Or, in the words of Jeremiah,

“Now hear this, O foolish and senseless people, who have eyes but do not see, who have ears but do not hear.”

What does this have to do with not seeing?

As I work on the Sight Unseen series, one recurring theme happens, of course. Memory loss—the removal of all insight into one’s past.  You can hear who you were, be informed of what you did and why others think you did it, but you can’t know your own self the way you once did. It’s a fresh slate, and it can be a good thing in some respects.

Those around you can now see the difference between habits and personality traits—true dislikes and those conditioned by life. What might have been a fear once could be gone if the cause of that fear is blotted out.

But even for these fictional characters, truth doesn’t change. In None So Blind, Ella takes her memory loss and uses it as an opportunity to reinvent herself, if you will. And you know what?  If you asked her family about it, they’d tell you that it fits her personality.  That take-charge gotta get ’er done attitude Dani may have used in different ways, but both “manifestations” of the woman had those qualities.  Sure, Ella’s was tempered by recent experience, but not much.

Vikki Jeffries, is almost the antithesis of Ella in that respect. 

The past is in the past. It scares her. Is it because she doesn’t know it?  Because she’s frightened by the unknown? We don’t know. But what we do know is anything associated with that past, even the few very personal items she finds, she rejects. It’s as if ignorance of them will protect her from them. Where Ella runs to face her problems, Vikki runs from them.

But despite those differences, I find it interesting that both women did the same thing, basically—just at different times.

Before her “episode,” Ella chose to blind herself to her faults.  She knew them. Lived with them daily, but couldn’t face or address them. So, she “refused to see.”

Vikki—we don’t know. But I think the story shows that she couldn’t blind herself to truth before her episode.  As much as she might have ached to, she just couldn’t. Now that the opportunity is here, however, she grasps it and if she insists on squeezing her eyes shut indefinitely, it may cost her everything—her life.  Her soul.

Philippians 4:8, “…whatever is true.”

They say ignorance is bliss.  Well, “they” also say, “Truth hurts.”  And sometimes it does. But so do the consequences of that ignorance.  I guess the next time the bank balance dips low, I won’t be handling the fallout alone.  Then again, one can always pray that it doesn’t dip low!  I think we’ll start there.

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Down But Not Out – the powerless overcome the strong

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Down but not out – the bullies hysterically laughed as I sat in a pond fully clothed with a waterlily on my head. “So who is the wet weekend now?” One of them asked. I could have felt down but I had to laugh as their retaliation to my comment meant I would be allowed home for the rest of the school day! The bus journey home was a wet affair, with people nudging and staring at me. One little boy asked if I had gone swimming, he was nearer to the truth than he knew. As I reminisce, I wonder why I was the target of so many cruel practical jokes. The answer may stem from the fact that my different shade of blue knitted school jumper marked me out as divergent.  I didn’t fit.

So what has this to do with A Door Cracked Open? Amy, the main character shares her down moments. These often led to God breaking through the times of pain and helping her to move on from a life where she felt she didn’t fit, to one where she did.  

About the Book

Margaret Kazmierczak reviews A Door Cracked Open by Carmina Edwards

Book title: A Door Cracked Open

Author: Carmina Edwards

Release date: November, 2015

Genre: Biography

Raised in a mean-spirited, poverty-stricken home in the seventies, where her quarrelsome father tries to squash her carefree spirit and her three siblings make fun of her, Amy struggles to understand what value she has. Somehow finding God in the midst of an atheist upbringing, she perseveres to grow up better than the useless person she’s assured she is.

When told at the age of sixteen that she must start working to pay her way instead of finishing school, she dares to dream of a better life, away from the squabbles and constant despair she encounters at home.

A magazine ad from a family in Sweden, looking for someone to watch their children, entices Amy’s adventurous spirit, and she soon finds herself looking through a new door in her life, cracked open to an amazing world she never dreamed possible, where people are nice to her and life is good.

”An incredible true story of perseverance in adversity, this is one account where truth truly is stranger than fiction.” ~Laurie Penner.

My penny’s worthDown But Not Out - A Door Cracked Open - A book review by Margaret Kazmierczak

Simply put this is a book about a young lady who wants to make her dreams come true. Being an avid reader, I have no doubt Amy’s imagination, fired by the many stories she read, inspired her subconsciously to break out of her dysfunctional home life.

Child-like faith

Underpinning this character’s motivation is a child-like faith, believing the impossible opens the door to moving mountains.

God’s work

This book is a good example of how God works behind the scenes bringing opportunities for healing to His fragile children. Such opportunities bless Amy. There are many golden moments of love expressed to her by her employers, which often Amy compares to her previous experiences. These past hurts or deprivation sometimes took away from the beauty of the moment.

Personally, I admired Amy’s bravery that escorted the naivety of her age. She wanted to change her life and strove to do so with God’s help.

Down but not out

This is an interesting book to read about life in the 70’s in England. Many people were down and out, but those that chose to walk a different path could, with a determined spirit, change their destination – just as Amy wanted to.

*I received this book for free. No compensation was received, and all opinions are my own.*

About the Author

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I am a mother of two wonderful grown up children and currently living in the UK, after living in Sweden for three years where I wrote my first book, “A Door Cracked Open.” I was blessed to be able to spend six months in USA before returning to the UK, my home country, to work with my editor in California on the edits of this book and visit friends.

I am an avid reader and linguist, having also spent some years living in France and have been fortunate enough to have taught Swedish and French over twenty-five years and translate for businesses and manuscripts in both languages. Being unemployed the past few years has led to me becoming homeless. However, I never give up hope. As I try to portray in my books, God has always had His hand on me. Once again, He has stepped in right at the last minute. I now have a new job in Sweden and will be moving back there. Because I feel passionate about helping the homeless, a large percentage of my royalties will go directly to them.

Guest Post from Carmina Edwards

Something about my book.

After many friends, having seen the unusual life I have led up until now, told me that I should write a book, I finally decided to do just that. I am an ordinary person who has not suffered more than many but has been privileged with many extraordinary experiences. I wrote my book in order to share with others, just how God has had His hand on me and brought me through some tough times which seemed impossible to find a way out of. My first book highlights some of this, though it isn’t until the second book, that more becomes clear and the third book will show the extreme mercy and grace He has showered me with. The story is still unfolding. My aim is to show, through my writing, that giving up is never an option. Stay true to God and He does pull us through. Trusting in Him is key and I personally, have seen Him transform some of the dreams He put onto my heart, into reality. I’d love for my books to be of some encouragement to others and have so far received several emails from readers all over the world, telling me how my story so far, has done that. One went so far as to say that she had given up, but read my book purely by chance and has picked herself up and is once again back on the road to reach her goals. The story of a scatty, spontaneous and highly sensitive girl, ridiculed all her life because of her faith and dreams, (she’s born into a completely atheist family). never gives up and some of the situations she gets herself into are pretty scary, but sometimes humorous. Yet God’s protection is seen all the way through.

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Giveaway

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To celebrate her tour, Carmina is giving away:

Grand Prize of a book-themed gift basket all the way from Sweden!

And

A 1st – 3rd place prize of an eBook copy of A Door Cracked Open!!

Click below to enter. Be sure to comment on this post before you enter to claim 9 extra entries! https://promosimple.com/ps/bd29

This Giveaway is now closed.

Congratulations to the winners: Margaret Appel, Lori Smanski, and Kim Gregory.

 

Mother loses memory – None So Blind by Chautona Havig

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“Who are you?” my father-in-law quizzed as I prevented his pathway out of the front door. “You can’t keep me here you know, all Polish Officers are charged with the duty of escaping if caught” – this will always be a painful memory for me.

“Dad, you are not in a POW camp now – the war is long over, you are safe.”

“I know you’re a German in disguise; you can’t fool me.” He retreated upstairs to his granddad annexe, muttering to himself how silly he had been to get caught.

Each day we, as a family had to deal with this dilemma. It was exhausting for us and frustrating for dad. Reading None So Blind therefore has been interesting to read as it deals with the issues of memory loss.

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