Warning: remove this assassin from your life now

That assassin is lurking again; he doesn’t show his face anymore. Instead, he hides in my subconscious waiting for the right moment to attack. He loves my mirror image, but I hate my reflection staring back at me.

“Look at that stomach; it’s larger than a humpback whale!”

Hitting where it hurts

Talk about below the belt. I am trying right – but the assassin loves to criticise.

Did you know a baby humpback whale weighs 1 ½ tons when it’s born?

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Gee if I weighed that much I would look like a blob – hardly very flattering. But the assassin doesn’t do flattery! He can be cruel with his words and will take no prisoners.

Have you heard him recently?

The assassin strikes

Before I started Slimming World, there were many comments thrown my way by the inner voice. So many in fact that I felt crushed by their constant attacks.

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That uncontrollable feeling of not being in charge, of desperation that accompanied those hurtful words. I couldn’t break free.

The assassin had me by the short and curlies.

Have you felt like that?

That blob feeling

Well, I did feel like a blob if I am honest – that overwhelming tiredness that hung to my every move. My arms and legs doubled for two full barrels of beer; only I didn’t get to enjoy the contents! The haziness of my mind blurred the day to day joys and left me a victim of my bed. The assassin lurked too close for comfort laughing as I struggled.

I felt so alone.

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Do you know what changed?

Taking control

Slowly I began to push away from the assassin’s control. I refused to hear his debilitating voice. Instead, I looked in the mirror and saw someone beautiful, overweight – yes, but underneath the exterior image, a stunning woman of great character shone through.

A simple solution?

So I asked for help. Simple as that – although it wasn’t that simple. I don’t do requests for help. I am a manager, except I wasn’t managing. It was my neighbour who triggered my need. She came to ask for a favour, and before I knew it, we did an exchange – I would look after her cats for a few days, and she would come for a walk with me when I felt able.

It was the key that turned the lock, which unlocked the door, that introduced me to my road of recovery.

A simple trade-off.

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The decision to change

Our walks were limited but the results remarkable. Criticism took a nose dive, and daily encouragement accompanied us. Then lifestyle became a constant companion, and we talked honestly about how my life could change for the better.

Support is key

I embraced it and Lettuce too, and the benefits are showing daily as I get stronger and lose a pound here and there. However, it is the support that cements the relationship and having that laugh each week at Slimming World spurs me on.

To my assassin, I say “clear off.”

Humpback whale indeed!

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Oh, I forgot about the weigh in, this week I lost 1 ½ pounds.  That makes a total of 9 ½ pounds altogether – I am so happy.

How about you dear reader, do you have something that stops you from living that life you deserve?

Author: Margaret Kazmierczak

For over fifty years I have laughed and cried through my life – it has been exciting, exhausting, emotional, challenging and infuriating. No one gave me a map or a ‘How to get out of stressful situations’ manual, to help me on my journey. Instead, it has been God and me, His Word and my mistakes. So let’s cut to the chase, I am a wife and mother of three almost adult children! I live in the South of England and dislike the rainy climate. Yes, it looks green but so does my face with little sunshine! With many occupations under my belt, I now spend my time writing – for my blog which includes book reviews, interviews some humorous pieces and a book called "How to Make Victoria Sponge." I also have some devotionals in a multi-author book "Heartwings Devotional. My life is hectic; I am disorganised, and God continually sorts me out. I hope my words bring you hope, comfort and laughter as I sit here in my dining room praying for inspiration and for the cat to get off my laptop!

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